"wait awile, close your eyes, let your breathing stop three seconds or so, listen to the inside silence of the womb of the world, let your hands and nerve-ends drop, re-recognize the bliss you forgot, the emptiness and essence and ecstacy of ever having been and ever to be the golden eternity.  This is the lesson you forgot." -                                                                                                                          ~Kerouac... this is the lesson i forgot. i told myself a year and a half ago upon returning to the states i told myself that i would not forget the peace of my little forest cottage in cz. where i forgot what was so important about survival that made us consume ourselves with it. food and shelter are two thngs that we require. everything else is frosting, now i like frosting as much as anybody else but when you break it down and it may break down for us in our lifetimes, certainly unless there is a massive power shift on the planet we will see nature do her thing. whew. i don't know if i can hack it sometimes. certainly this crazed electrified wourld we live in is overwhelming. im in orlando right now which is like taking reverse electroshock therapy. thankfully yoga keeps me on track and weed loosens the grip of the grind. also luckily, from here i will fly to a 37th birthday(3/21) adventure in the carribean…i never could spell that word one of those things. anyway hurray for one week of beach and bliss and perhaps swimming with the humpbacks. (whale sound!) after the beach ill be back here and then i don't know although im pointing toward europe again by the time it warms up there, with nyc and a few side trips between here and there. been on the road so much lately no time to write, hell ive stood in the bar with some of you and still did not have the opportunity to connect. its so funny how we all need and desire real connections with other humans but yet we hide it so well. we stand around and speak of the blather of the world around us, look whos winning star search. amusing isnt it? there are two parts of us that lead to two different places one is empty and one is full. the cluttered chaos of conciousness,of its four processes (reason,will,imagination,and sense perception) its only the fourth that we need to stay human, food and shelter. im not preachin im reachin. reachin for all of you wherever you are reading this, in whatever situation/location you are in, all the crap that currently going on around you. now, close your eyes and close your mouth and take one long deep breath in which you gather all those things that are gathered in your conciousness inhale them to the top of your head and blow them out nice and easy but with force and intention… now just sit still for a few seconds and enjoy. its like a mini vacation. the snackable version of paradise. paradizers®. available everywhere in the know universe. there are even some folks that live on em, and i once met a man who lived on em for four months and he didn't do nothin else but breath and did'n have a bite or a drink or nothin he just breathed and he was alright…now that's breakin it down, screw food and shelter im talking about air and energy. as for me i still need coffee. so i wish you all a breath and coffee and moments of respite in this wilderness of man. remind me to tell you about the "mans world theory" when next we meet, which i hope will be soon. until then ill remain,                       gonzonically,